thats what she said...

untitled [kate/miles]

2009-03-18T14:55:08Z

Name: Untitled
Pairing: Kate/Miles
Fandom: Lost
Spoilers: Let just say all through S5, to be safe.
Dedication:xsikozu
Warnings: Angsty galore. And I may or may not, um, kill off Team Island
Summary: VERY AU, where Kate stayed on the Island and there is no rescue, and the flashes don't end.

Someone once told her that time heals all wounds. Even dashed hopes. Even forgotten promises. Even broken hearts.

That person was her mother. And for once she told the truth.

She knew they’d all die eventually. They’d fall to the jungle floor, their red mortality dried into their skins, their eyes searching the skies for saviour.

So they walked.

It didn’t seem so stupid really, to set off without a destination and literally walk till you drop. Of all the dumb things she’d ever done, this barely compared. After, she’d spent a lifetime running, she could pace herself the final stretch.

They all dealt with the realization differently. Juliet cried for a life she used to have. Jin sunk inside himself, brooding and silent. Dan- well, he just carried on being Dan.

Sawyer was the only one who repented and she hates him for it.

The flashes broke the clear skies, shattered the silence, crashed her rebirth and tore it into little pieces.

-

And then there were two.

It seemed funny, or maybe kind of tragic, and all sorts of crazy. Being left with him. Them. Us. Dieing.

He told jokes, stupid ones that make her smile and frown at the same time. She’s angry at him always, and she can’t explain why. Somewhere in a past life he learnt how to run and they do it together. The weird, childish love affair that’ll stain her dieing memories.

“Kate Austin, I love you.”

He knows her inside out, he’s read her file and he’s made love to her on the jungle floor. He says it with a grin and a drunken wink, the blood from his nose still fresh. They find cheap Dharma beer by the crate-load and drown their sorrows until another flash takes it away. They sit round a campfire and she almost suggests playing I Never.

She kisses him. Because… she gave up trying to explain why a long time ago. She’s Kate Austin. She’s never heard of heartbreak.

“I love you, Miles Straume.”

The fire crackles into the deep night as they use each other for warmth, and hope they’ll both be dead buy morning.

Movies and Books 09

2009-01-01T20:13:24Z

Starting NOW :)

movies

1. Jailhouse Rock (1957) 3/5
I love Elvis. This is actually the first film I've seen him in and although he shouldn't get an academy award for his acting it's still a decent movie. Plus Jailhosue Rock is one of my favouirte songs.
2. Monty Python And The Holy Grail (1975) 5/5
Gotta be the funniest thing ever. Or at least close. If you like hilarious utter randomness of epic proportions, watch this.
3. Memoirs Of A Geisha (2005) 3/5
Forget being a Disney princess. I'll be a Geisha, plz.
4. The Jerk (1979) 3/5
I got told this was the funniest film ever. That it ain't. But it is extremely hilarious. Especially the 'I Don't Need This' scene.
5. Good Luck Chuck (2007) 2/5
Thank god for the sexiness that is Jessica Alba, or this was a one for sure.
6. Slumdog Millionaire (2008) 5/5
Brillaint. I love all Danny Boyle's films. Latika/Jamal = My new OTP
7.The Godfather (1972) 5/5
Um, ABOUT TIME METHINKS. It really is wonderful, the Don's death scene is amazing.
8. Once Upon A Time In The West (1968) 5/5
The defintive Western, apparently. It's certainly a marvel, with beautiful long-shots and sets. It's gritty and beautiful and I loved it.
9. The Godfather Part II (1974) 5/5
Even sequels were good in the Seventies. As much as I love Robert Dr Niro, I still preffered the first. No denying it's brilliance, though
10. Schindler's List (1993 5/5)
I love this film a lot. Liam Neeson is brillaint.
11. Carlito's Way (1993) 5/5
Al Pacino FTW. And I can't be the only one who found him hot in this. Sean Penn is also great in this.
12. American Graffitti (1973) 3.5/5
I liked it, I thought it was fun, but it never really gripped me. And the end me left my kinda questioning its whole point, if I'm honest.

books

1. The Eyes Of The Dragon by Stephen King 3/5
No, I don't like Stephen King being all mystical and crap AT ALL.
2. Don't Tell Mummy by Toni Magurie 2/5
I hate reading this crap, I really do, but it was the only thing available. Don't read if you're squeamish
3. The Choice by Bernadette Bohan. 2/5
Totally not what I expected from the blurb. It's a very subtle self-help book from a nice but kinda bland woman.

Aiming for 50 books and 100 films this year :)

My thoughts

2008-12-30T23:00:53Z

Two cinema trips this week!

Australia.
Let me just start by saying I knew this would be long. It's directed by Baz Luhrmann, for christsakes. But JEEZ THAT FILM WAS LONG. They could ahve at least tried to make it bareable through those three hours. It was boring, the characters weren't at all well rounded, cliche-ridden, and in the wise words of lenina20sugar-coated genecide into a terrible story that could have down with being an hour shorter never started. My and my friend spent the last half hour of this movie chatting about New Years Eve and flicking popcorn at each other. that being said, it's a pretty enough film and Hugh Jackman lookks hot in it. But that really isn't worht the ticket.

Bedtime Stories
I took my cousin to see this, and she of course loved it. I also dragged my friend along so that we could shout and squeal whenever Russel Brand was on screen. The film was pretty mediocore, but it would have been OK had it not been for the stupid guy who sat behind me who kept KICKING MY SEAT. I think I've worn away half my teeth from gritting them so hard.

Anyways, other news in Molly world. I got a new phone! Can I get a woop, woop?

*tumbleweed*

Uh, yeah, it's cool.

le sigh

2008-12-28T15:05:22Z

Why on earth is Simon Amstell gay? What is wrong with the Earth?

Can't he even just be a little bit bisexual? Is it so much to ask?

Gah, he's so cute. He's like a pug in ballerina shoes on the cuteness scale.

Anyways, I just came back from my dentists appointment *shudders*. I needed cheering up. That pic has done the trick.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaand I also wanted to just spread some love. Because you flisties are so nice to me and my fickleness. I started putting personal presents out for you all but there are like 80 people on my flist O.o

So have some Michael McIntyre because he's hilarious

I'm off to see Australia, talk to you all later :)

Don't hold back ;)

2008-12-27T23:39:39Z

LET'S RING IN SOME

HONESTY

WITH THE NEW YEAR

THE MEME

It's me!

2008-12-26T00:33:47Z

I'm back!

And Merry Christmas to you all! I hope you're all well!

Instead of a boring 'what-I've-been-up-to' post, lets talk about prezzies!

I've been hugely spoilt this year. My parents know it'll be my last Christmas living at home so they got me some lovely gifts :]
Time to combine two of my favourite things, making lists and gifts.

I got:
An iPod Touch!
Perfume
Bath stuffs (I sometimes wonder if they're hinting to me)
Make-up
LOST!! SEASON!! FOUR!! (my life is now officially complete)
New hair curlers
Bras :-]
Books, CDs, DVDs
A new radio (which is awesome)
T-shirts, because I'm a T-shirt whore.

I'm so happy :) I was quite worried because I hadn't been feeling very festive lately. But today was gooooood.

I do want to say something else. A couple of weeks ago I was round my friends house and we were getting ready for a night out. She went on Facebook and I saw this boy who I went to to high school with- I sat next time him in Science for a year and we got on so well. I always thought he was really cute, he was was really geeky and awkward in such an adorable way and always made me laugh. Anyway, he was online and I added him to my msn. He added me back, and the last few weeks theres been a little love brewing :D Yesterday he asked if he could have my number. We've texted each other all day. I'm in luuuuuurve, guys.

:S

2008-12-06T21:51:16Z

I thought I'd make a forward apology to everyone, I'm a bit drunk tonight :P

Just thought I'd say I've found my back up plan if me and Ben don't work out.

ORLANDO FRIGGIN SEALE

ILOVEHIM

I fly like paper

2008-12-01T18:00:51Z

Put your MP3 player/playlist on shuffle and write down the first line of the first twenty songs. Post the poem that results. The first line of the twenty-first is the title.

I fly like paper

As much as I love you
Somewhere over the rainbow
Her name is Noelle
Put your faith in what you most believe in
There was a love affair in this building
Help, I need somebody
I did my best to notice
Goodbye Mr A
I will not make the same mistakes as you did
I find the map and draw a straight line
Please don't stop the music
I've made up my mind
Found myself today singing out your name
Another turning point
Leave me out with the waste
Are you there?
Getting born in the state of Mississippi
I'm gonna fight 'em off
As the moon kindles the night
I probably shouldn't say this

This is probably the weirdest thing I've ever posted. And some of these songs are really embaressing.

Just a quick update on my cat. I was really overwhelmed how many of you commented and said you do care about my cat. Thank you all for that. I didn't need to take my cat to the vet after all. She was up and walking by the next morning. Just me over-reacting ;]

:/

2008-11-26T21:57:40Z

When I came in today I looked for the cat to feed her and I couldn't find her anyway. She's getting to old now so she doesn't leave past the back garden. I looked for her for a while and went back inside for a bit. I tried tempting her with food but it was just left when I checked back an hour later and in none of her hiding places in the house. After checking the yard again I found her lying behind the shed, nto moving. i tried to get her out but she didn't respond at all and I really begn to panic. Finally she looked up and I squeezed down (totally covered in spiders and beetles by this point) and picked her up by she made this horrible yowling noise and kind of tripped over her self to get away from me. I somehow managed to pick her up (which seriously was not easy) and got her in while she clawed up my arms and bit me. I got her inside and ignored her hissing at me and tried to look at her back leg which seemed to be hurting her. She wouldn't let me at all near so now I've made a bed for her near the radiator but I'm a bit worried about her still. Might take her to the vet tommorow.

Sorry, I know you guys aren't really interested in my cat. I just like to give you an entry when possible.

Just to let you all know...

2008-11-24T22:53:56Z

LJ isn't sending me emails properly.
And it's pissing me off.

Friday Night

2008-11-22T12:59:08Z

I've been having a bit of a Disney-a-thon today. I watched Tarzan, The Little Mermaid, The Hunchback of Notre Dame and 101 Dalmations. Feel a bit cartoon-ed out. I know that Disney DVDs are on sale at the supermarket as well so I guess I'll have to keep myself away.

I was outdrinking last night and it was really good :D It's the first time we've all been together in ages, all 15 of us, and it was such a laugh. we started off at the middle of the city and then as a joke Chris (who's gay) dragged us into all these gay bars which was really funny. We all nearly died laughing when YMCA came on by 'special request'. Me and Rachael both ended up dancing with this group of gay guys and it was really good. We left quite early to catch the last bus that goes to all our stops and we sat on there, alone, just talking about nothing. Mine was the third last stop and I remember that I probably should have been more careful to be out drunk, in the middle of the night but I just walked home and kept laughing at things I remembered. I came in and lay on the couch for a bit eating mini-tolberones and watching Never Mind The Buzzcocks repeats, then The Apartment and went back to bed pretty content. Wish I could say the same for when woke up this morning!

So I'm just going to browse the internet for some nice t-shirts now. I love the ones from Local Celebrity. And HOW many people on my flist NEED one of these?

And, um, I think thats all I wanted to say. I hope you're all well!

Edit: I just wanted to add this. I don't think words are necessary.

And one more thing, I'm going to my best friend's parent's wedding reception tonight. I've known them since Middle School and I love them to bits :D

Angry face

2008-11-10T12:19:54Z

I went shopping on the weekend because I needed a new cardi or two (thats my way of accesrorising :P) and everywhere... everywhere was full of Christmas stuff. It's ridiculous! Going out to buy these cardis was my TREAT, and they're the type that only cost like £2 from Primark. How the bloody hell am I meant to afford Christmas stuff while I'm flat hunting? I have to save all the money I have right now! Can't it just be autumn for a teeny bit longer, please?

Oh yeah, and just to let you know, if one more person suggests that I should make my presents out of string and glue and pasta shapes... I may kill.

And something else happened when I was in town. All this kids wearing Jonas Brothers t-shirts were preaching about celibacy and trying to sell us rings. I don't have any issue with people saving themselves. I do however, have an issue with a bunch of teenagers following me down the main street telling me that if I don't wear one of their rings I'll die a painful, long death alone and unloved. Or something along those lines ;)

I went to the McFly concert last night! Don't laugh at me :P

iPod Meme

2008-11-02T15:08:00Z

Found this awesome meme and would love you all to fill it in :]

iPod type: Nano
Got a pet name for it?: Geraldine :P
Number of songs: I only got it recently so theres 124.
Last song you downloaded: M.I.A - Paper Planes.
Last played: Girls Aloud - Call The Shots
Most played: Vanessa Carlton - A Thousand Miles
Song no one else has heard: John Rzenzick (Goo Goo Dolls) - I'm Still Here
Fave new band/artist: The Flobots seem promising.
Last album That'd be R.E.M - Accelerate
Most embaressing song: Probably 'Meatloaf - I'd Do Anything For Love (But Not That)'
First on shuffle: Adele - Best For Last

Fill it in, go on :P

Guys, I got a problem here.

2008-10-28T12:18:15Z

The LOST season 4 boxset came out a few days ago... and I still haven't bought it. Which is weird for me because I always get it on the day it comes out. The things is, I told my family that they could buy it for me for christmas, because they always say how hard it is to choose gifts for me. It isn't but they're convinced themselves it is. You guys do not know how tempted I am to just go get one now. Serious willpower will have to be excersized here.

I bought some new CDs:

And I few books...

(but this was the only one I had time to find a picture of, lol)

Did ya miss me?

2008-10-27T09:48:50Z

Hey guys. Yep, it's another 'I'm back again' post from me. Seriously, I don't know how many of these I've written for LJ. Must be about 20 now. I can never stick to it. Sorry.

I don't feel as though I've got a hugely hectic life, there's just a lot of little things going on. I'm still working hard at my job and looking for a place to live and keeping up with my group of friends. It just annyos me that I go on the computer like, everyday but never seem to find time for this. I've made some great friends on here and I'm sorry that every couple of weeks I just leave you all.

So, I'm not going to be able to catch up on a months worth of entries, so a little update would be appreciated i f somethings happened that i should know about. I'm going to go a little bit back anyway, but probably won't comment. Lemme know whats up :)

PS. I am the reason why there should be a bloated mood icon. Monster Munch are so addictive *could puke*.

Original Fiction

2008-10-04T10:39:00Z

I've been writing a bit. Nothing fandom-y, a new story. It kinda came to me when I was trying to write Joker fic.

It's a villain/superhero story. Yeah, the villain is called The Numerator. Leave him alone. he likes math :p

So I thought I would post the beginning on here, and you guys could comment on whether I chould continue or not, mmmkay? It's just, when I read it through, it sounds like a really pathetic copy at Stephen King, which totally wasn't what i was aiming for. But I'll let you make your own mind up.

10:52am ,12 November 2007, New York, Joe’s Cuisine.

Josephine Tullen didn’t notice anything strange about the small, quiet man who sat in the booth furthest to the left on that cold November morning. Well, maybe that he was a bit twitchy, or that those sunglasses of his were far too big for his face, but nothing out of the norm.

The diner that day was nearly deserted, with only two of the regulars residing in their usual spots. Jane Clementis, a high school sophomore, sat at the window seat facing the pet shop across the road, reading Hemmingway and sipping milkshake absentmindedly. Nick McNeil, a talkative old man who was constantly saying how he would one day visit a cousin of his in Alabama, sat on a high stool nearest the plastic straws, slowly working his way through a blow of tomato soup. Joe, the chef, flipped burgers in the kitchen, his deep voice projecting Frank Sinatra throughout the diner.

Feeling more than a little rushed off her feet, despite the little service, Josephine sighed as the fidgety stranger distracted her attention from the till with a wave in her direction. Motioning that she would be there in two minutes, she wiped her greasy hands on her apron and wiped her brow, the heat from the fryer making her sweat. In her head a list of chores she would have to do once she finished her shift repeated in a little rhythm. Laundry, groceries, vac-u-ming, pick the kids up and sleep. Laundry, groceries, vac-u-ming-

“Can I help, ya, sweetheart? More coffee?”

-pick the kids up and sleep. Laundry-

“Sir? Is there somethin’ wrong, sir? Sir?”

-groceries, vac-u-ming, pick the kids u-

With one swift movement, a pistol was pulled from the odd customer’s overcoat and used against the 45 year old waitress. The teenage girl wailed loudly and was soon silenced. The old man, who had backed into the wall with his hand against his chest, was soon dealt with too. Patiently, the man waited until Frank Sinatra came to an abrupt halt, and Joe, all 17 stone of him, appeared from the kitchen looking furious and wielding a spatula. His eyes met eventually with this most unusual man, and his bottom lip quivered, the top covered in beads of sweat. Contemplating his options, in the line of a handgun, his staff and loyal customers dead, Joe Tyler decided to die a hero’s death. Running towards this, this thing, brandishing his spatula and roaring with anger, Joe thought of his brother, Richard, who was trying to get a Visa so that he could visit. He thought of his uncle Tony, who cooked the greatest burgers he had ever eaten, and had left him this very diner when he died. He thought of him wife Tami, who worked in the laundrette two blocks down, and would be going for her first ultrasound today. While he ran the mysterious figure watched, and let him come close enough to think he had a chance of knocking the gun from his hands, then shot him, twice.

Sitting among this undersized massacre, the individual calmly left his seat. Weaving between the bodies, he plucked four fifty dollar bills from the cash register, left the rest of the money untouched and closed it was a sharp slam. Pacing himself, he placed a small business card on each of the victim’s chests. It read:

Any closer to catching that pesky Numerator yet?

Remember, Detective Callan, I’m always two steps ahead. Want to catch up?

µ

The glass door shut with a loud rap and remained closed until a few hours later, when a poor mother would come in search of her only daughter in that filthy place she had become so fond of. Soon there were many police, forensics and news crews at the scene. But they were all too late, he had already gone.

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Controversial Meme.

2008-10-03T16:24:19Z

I'm following the craze on LJ that is THE CONTROVERSIAL MEME. Read at your own free will, people.

[01] Do you have the guts to answer these questions and repost as The Controversial Survey? - Yeah.

[02] Would you do meth if it was legal? - No. I don't take drugs, period. I don't mind other people using them, but I hope they're careful. Naveen Andrews once said 'Do whatever harm you like to yourself, but its gone too far if you're hurting others'.

[03] Abortion: for or against it? - I'm against it. I know, I know, sometimes its necessary. But c'mon, lets not be ridiculous here. I've had sex. I'm not pregnant. Because I used a little thing called birth control.

[04] Do you think the world would fail with a female president? - Are you kidding me? LOL, you can just imagine the LJ posts. 'The world is now epic fail' It would be like that time the Lost fans saw a certain Jack episode. Rofl.

[05] Do you believe in the death penalty? - Yeah, it exists. And I'm very much an eye-for-an-eye type of girl. If someone got a away with hurting my little brotehr for example, I'd be angry enough to kill. I mean, have you seen the inside Rose West's cell? It's awesome. And this is a woman who, with her husband, tortured, raped and killed at least 12 little girls, even their own kid. And she still take no blame. Nobody can say she deserves to sit and watch Sky all day in her plummy cell. Not on.

[06] Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already? - No. Who cares if you do marijuana thesedays anyway?

[07] Are you for or against premarital sex? - It would be a bit hypocritical to be against it! LOL. I'm for sex when you're ready.

[08] Do you believe in God? - No, I don't. Its an educated answer, because I grew up among christians and my entire family is christian, I've read the bible and still, no.

[09] Do you think same-sex marriage should be legalized? - Of course it should. It's 2008, people.

[10] Do you think it's wrong that so many Hispanics are illegally moving to the USA? - I know immigration is a huge problem, but shouldn't they try and sort out WHY these people are moving?

[11] A twelve-year-old girl has a baby. Should she keep it? - Wow, that's so sad to think of. I wouldn't have been ready at that age, and I don't know many teenage girls that would be.

[12] Should the drinking age be lowered to 18? - It already is here. it should be everywhere, though.

[13] Should the war in Iraq be called off? - Yeah. The war should be called off, and positive steps should be made toward change.

[14] Assisted suicide is illegal: I agree with that.

[15] Do you believe in spanking your children? - I was spanked and no doubt I am a better person because of it.

[16] Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars? -Sure I would. Who's willing to gimme the money?

[17] Who do you think would make a better president? McCain or Obama? - TBH, I've had so much political bollocks shoved down my neck lately that i couldn't care less.

[18] Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers? - Maybe some people will. I dunno.

I don't know what a Hollaback girl is. All I know is that I want her dead.

2008-09-28T14:48:39Z

Don't you just love Sacha Baron Cohen?

LMAO

'You're drunk' 'You're sexy'

2008-09-27T21:33:14Z

From now on, to save me the chore of thinking up decent subject titles, I shall quote Stewie and Brain Griffin. Mwahahahaha.

I just want to say thank you to everybody who wished me happy birthday! You guys are the best *hugs flist collectively.*

My birthday itself was pretty good. I got a new iPod off my parents (nothing was wrong with my old one, but they have got it into their heads that I'm impossible to shop for), a £15 gift voucher from my grandparents, Middlemarch by George Eliot from Charlotte, McFly's new album from Louise and a few cards with some money in. I was spoit, hehe.

Just wondering, do any of you guys think 20 is much of a milestone? What did turning 20 mean to you? What does it mean to you right now? I'm nosy.

To me it means shedding the 'huffy teenager' label if I get upset. I don't know why it should make a difference, but I know it will.

Also, it means time for change. Time to move out and stand on my own two feet. I'm going to let myself adjust a bit to my new job then I'm moving. Hopefully it'll be somewhere closer to my current job.

That'll be good.

Oh, and according to your votes, I went to see The Boy In The Striped Pyjamas last night. Tip: DON'T GO IF YOU ARE PRONE TO FEELING EMOTIONAL. I THOUGHT MY INSIDES HAD BEEN RIPPED OUT, I WAS SO SAD.
*deep breath*

So again, thanks to everybody so much, I hope you're all OK and in good health :)

Grrrr

2008-09-23T20:07:43Z

Remember how I said I was going to see Get Smart in the cinema? Well they're not showing it anymore. *mutters under breath*

So anyway, poll between the two films I would see instead

View Poll: #1265662

Is this weird?

2008-09-23T16:30:44Z

It's my birthday on Friday and we're going to see Get Smart. For the sole reason that I'm in love with Steve Carrell.

i even sat through Evan Almighty and loved it.

Funny men are sexy, mmmkay?

And I finally, finally, finally changed my profile! Trust me, it rocks. =P

So much to tell...

2008-09-22T20:40:20Z

Loads to say, so you lot can have the condensed version =D

Saturday: Watched Brokeback Mountain. Heartbreaking doesn't even come close. I was completely devastated and cried through the last 20 minutes of it. Am now on a Heath Ledger kick again.

Oh yeah, and Jake Ghylenhaal is so sexy.

Sunday: Nuttin'.

Today: Started my job today. Bascally getting shown the ropes, etc. I'm really, really happy I got it!

Oh yeah, and just to clear this up with everyone? THAT WAS MICHAEL EMERSON'S EMMY. WE ALL KNOW IT.

See? That was short =P

Edit: oh yeah, and if anyone wants to read the short story Brokeback Mountain was based on online, HERE.

\\insert something witty HERE//

2008-09-20T10:10:59Z

Yesterday I got another call from the job people. They said that the other girl had decided not to write her letter for the job.

I felt a bit bad for her. I really should have told them to go shove dynomite up thier bum and keep my pride, but I decided against it. After all, a jobs a job, right?

I'm really happy I got it, especially since I was so nervous going into the interview.

So last night we all went out for a few drinks and this group of guys started chatting us up. They looked at 13, so i don't know how they got in, but they were really cute so we told them to stop being lewd and danced with them for a laugh (bear in mind we were all a bit tipsy, LOL)

...

I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!1oneoneone!!

B-but, that's not fair!

2008-09-18T19:07:43Z

I got a call today, just before leaving the house, about that job interview. Well, I thought they were going to tell me I hadn't got it. They were gushing the compliments. Then I got the 'well-although-you're-very-good-for-the-place-we're-stuck' speech. Long story short, I have to write them something explaining why I deserve the job.

It just doesn't seem fair. I'm so irritated, I'm considering writing it, but American Beauty style, y'know?

I just wish they would choose. I don't want to miss out on other oppertunities for a job that isn't really that well paid and quite far away.

Pfft. Not being in the know sucks.

Oh yeah, and today I bought The Da Vinci Code from a charity shop. Which made me happier :D

Dogs chasing cars

2008-09-17T20:44:16Z

Hey there guys. My computer kept having problems about a fortnight ago. Since I don't know anything about computers, it took a while to fix, and there was a lot of flisting for me. Luckily, even though I've done a crappy job over the last few pages, I'm back.

I know you're almost all going through a rough time right now. I'm so sorry. Some of you guys on my flist have issues within themselves, and I often think that maybe you can't see as well as everybody else can how brilliant you are. Some have problems outside their control. I'm so sorry guys, all of you in this type of trouble. Right now, I'm thinking of someone in particular, but I hope you know you're all in my thoughts. Much love.

Oh, and I'd like to end on a more positive note. I've been to a job interview, and I think it went OK!